Matthew 10:39
Whoever finds his life will lose it, and whoever loses his life for my sake will find it.

this verse also talk about my things i wan. the more i wan it, the more i am losin it, unable to complete it.

currently down due to negaive thought of not being a good Gl. wasting chunk time on skit coz i donno what to lead(spritualy-food). not able to keep my cool just bcoz i wan to win, even have intention to wack some one due to his ability and not knowin that he is actually tryin his best. how foolish i am...

i am clinkin very hard, although i know that witnessing is a process not an event, i expect quickest respond, i can't wait. where is my faith? trust for him? i am doin things by my own. just like those who elder christian who was turn down by people. pride? nice story from caleb.

there was once a man who god ask him to oush a moutaint. it did not seems to
move and the person ask god. god replied, i only ask u to push ma, leave
the movin to mi, immidetly, the moutain move to no where.

if its the me in the pass, i will say "i did my very best, i have no regrate" but i had changed. i am prayin hard to let off... this camp really taught mi alot. prise god for it. still recoverin from the sickness. i need time.

Pray for:
-mi, to recover asap
-those lost camper alvin chook, daiana, rentro, jolie, tyen chai, mei xiang, jia wei
-pray that li wen will not get down like mi

prise god, i had grown a little more